Never have thought that heartache from love would bring me here, to write what i cannot share with the people i care, with people who don't know me.. What an irony! A friend once told me... all u need is to love ur guy and not understand him, easier said than done. How can anyone love anything she doesn't understand? Isn't honesty the most important element in any form of relationship? My "boyfriend" (or not) told me recently of the love-turn-obligation he has towards me. Yes u r right, he initiated a break-up with me. Like most women (i guess), i didn't take it very well. My "yi ku er nao, san shang diao" techniques lasted for 2 whole weeks before i was "granted" a 2nd chance with a 2-yr expiry, haha. i know i had stooped very low and i now know what is REAL love. i suddenly "see" all the errors i was guilty of, all i ask for is a chance for me to improve. The chance was granted, grudgingly or unwillingly maybe. Because behind that "2-yrs agreement", is Limited - love, trust, honesty... all the fundamentals of a solid relationship. i try not to dwell on negativity and move on with the somewhat half-hearted (from one party) charade. i struggle for what tiny shred of patience i have. i clamp my mouth to refrain from questioning the questionable honesty behind some incidents. i wana smile and be happy for the cover of these crappy doubts and confusion.These, i realise from a jolt, that i am willing to do for love.